Tuesday, December 29, 2009

I genuinely miss someone. That's not family I mean. Usually I'm lying when I say that. But I just thought of someone and actually felt sad that I can't talk to them right now... he's like 10 zillion miles away. School starts in like 6 days or something, my summer will finally be over. I'll finally have something productive to focus on. I'll finally be asleep when everyone else is. :D! I'm gonna go and try that now...

x



Sunday, December 20, 2009

Phok you

Almost died yesterday. Don't feel anything at all today.
Only thing that has given me a spark of emotion was the trailer.

March 19, 2010

Friday, December 18, 2009

the GL


My sister is currently curling her hair in the bathroom and I'm eating a huge cheese quesadilla. So healthy. My brother gets home for Christmas break today! Yesss. This Christmas should be great. I'm just wondering where the snow is... I think this is the first Christmas I've ever had in my hometown without snow. Global Warming?







I always had a passion for flashin' before I had it
I close my eyes and imagine, the good life

Thursday, December 17, 2009




song of the day
"saviour"- lights

Ignore me even more.


It's helping. I'm getting stronger.





" That's the tragedy here. It's not that we'll miss out on seeing a man who could have been a brilliant player, it's that someone who had once been so far down the wrong path could have come back. He was on his way. If things had continued to go the way they were headed, Chris Henry could have one day stood in front of the world as an example that no matter what you've done in the past, that your future can be better. He could have told the at-risk youth of the world, "Yes, it can be difficult to change the direction of your life, but it can be done, and you have the power to do it. I did it, and you can do it."

What a great thing that could've been for the world to have. Too many times, a gifted person comes along, and we automatically make them a role model. Inevitably, they end up doing something to let us down. The truth is, though, that those were never the role models we needed. The role models we need are the people who let us down first, and then show the strength and character to fight back from that.

Sooner or later, we're all going to let somebody down. We're all going to screw up. But life is about how you come back from it, how you learn from it and how you use it to make yourself a better, stronger person.

Chris Henry was becoming that guy. And we could have used that. "

R.I.P

Saturday, December 12, 2009

But tell me, did you sail across the sun? Did you make it to the Milky Way To see the lights all faded And that heaven is overrated? Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star? One without a permanent scar And then you missed me While you were looking for yourself?

Na Na Na Na Na Na

Friday, December 11, 2009


This is the birthday weekend. Not for me, though. Going to my first drag show tomorrow. Really anticipating the flamboyance, body shots and fake eyelashes that I'm about to be exposed to!! Yess. And tonight is Haidee's birthday dinner in Kirkland. Lately It's been the 'so cold you don't wanna get out of bed' weather. I just walked into my bathroom and it felt like what I guess it would feel like to walk into an igloo. And I had such a cute dress & coat combo picked out :( No go

x




Debbie's iTunes Recently Added:

1 Walking Away 3:29 Craig David
2 Day N' Nite 3:43 Kid Cudi
3 Closer 4:00 Kings of Leon
4 Special Needs 5:16 Placebo
5 Let Me Take You There 3:46 Plain White T's
6 Set The Fire To The Third Bar 3:24 Snow Patrol

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

tpid , a silent sleeper you won't hear a peep peep



Lately I've been getting so bad that I'm to the point where I feel like I would do anything. And that's no good. No good at all. Nothing I want or obsess over is going to change what is fact. I think I need to get out of here. I think it's this town, I'm dying. But I have responsibilities. I have to go to school. I start college in January and that's that. What am I gonna do? Move away, on my own, and not go to college? And if I go to college somewhere else, where I long to be, it'll be foreign. I saw the movie Taken. I'm a cautious person, not a reckless person. So it's a moot point. I want out but I have responsibilities. Done. I'm no different then every 12 out of 15 people in this world, huh? What a baby. I promise I'm not a baby. I just feel like I'm dying. Nothing is getting any better. I tune in on all these commercials and songs that say it'll get better. But it doesn't. It's only gotten worse. I've only gotten worse. It's been a year now.

x

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

I haven't been myself


I haven't been myself
I haven't been myself
I haven't been myself
Bogus excuse so I'm just gonna call it my explanation
I can't make any sense of it and
I wish I had more to say to you.
I just haven't been myself lately
Hate to sound typical and phony and cliche
I promise, I'm HONESTLY trying to say,


It's not you, it's me.
lately,
I haven't been myself

I'm sorry.
________________________


“You can never be known for what you want to be known for,”
“People will know you for whatever they want to know you for.”
- RP

________________________

so I have 200 profile views in 2 months? awesome. someone likes me.

Monday, December 7, 2009

who has a holga camera? who has vision?



When it rains it snows on this prairie town


there's a good three inches on the ground


seems I'll be losing any peace I've found,







going to Los Angeles for a few days towards the end of this month, before st. nick comes. Yes!

Saturday, December 5, 2009






movie list ;

Remember Me
Up in the Air
No Greater Love
The Runaways
Cracks
The Yellow Handkerchief
How To Be
Armored
Welcome to the Rileys



I'm having LA withdrawal. Going to ask my dad if I can go for a 3 day weekend soon. Wish me luck. And Vancouver BC looks like a yes go. All I want to do is go to dirty bars and experience life, k? maybe some nice clean ones too.
he's a brit.


lovers, keep on the road you're on.
runners, run til the race is run.
soldiers, you've got to soldier on.
sometimes, even the right is wrong.

I have no doubt, one day the sun'll come out .

up in the air


Take the time to take apart, each brick that sits outside your heart
And look around you
There's people everywhere
And though they don't always show it they're just as scared
And we'd be more prepared if you just pulled on through


I want you to try to help yourself

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

I have no idea how I'm feeling. Well maybe I do, but I can't put a word to it. I guess there's no word for it. I've been kind of emo the past few days. haha I guess emo is when you feel super mellow and nothing excites you, right? Yeah, that's me right now. I had fun at Pike Place Market today with my mom and sister. Bought two books for 3$ each, and some apricots. haha Got Pride & Prejudice and Wuthering Heights, so now I'll finally get to finish it. Watched a really talented homeless man play and sing country music. I had no idea that Pike's had a sort of creepier, almost deserted 3rd floor down below. Nothing much is down there except an old used books store, a closed down pre school and a fortune teller. It felt like any other day. I don't feel any different, being older. Ehrm... I've had background music in my head all day. It was special needs by placebo. And the ending of that movie is still on my mind. Top it off? I feel like I want to scream, but I can't.



Just 19 and sucker's dream I guess I thought you had the flavor
Just 19 and dream obscene with six months off for bad behavior

Remember me...

- placebo